When it is difficult to decide ...

What do you do when it is difficult to decide? If you can’t decide, you either take a chance with your intuition or simply do nothing. If you take a chance, what do you put on stake? Is it worth doing so? Well, if you win, you achieve the biggest happiness of your life. But, if you lose, you lose everything you have. Big risk … isn’t it? If you decide against taking this risk, well, you are looking good to be losing ‘it’, not with a burst though, slowly, but certainly.

However, the words before may not be striking towards a particular reference situation, but the idea is pretty much clear. Lack of the ability to decide is the biggest weakness, the ultimate handicap a person can have. Such a trait of one can put him in a vicious circle. No matter what but the doldrums are bound to get on you and your ship finally ends up nowhere.

Well, enough of blabbering. What the hell do I mean by making a decision? Is making a decision enough? Aren’t the consequences of the actions based on them count? What if what you decide was the worst possible thing you could have ever done in those circumstances? And you did that, you decided on that, just because you rushed in through a very critical situation. “Haste makes waste” … people say that, what more!

Well mate, probably these lines hit you better than those with which I started. But, it’s not about rushing into a decision, but making sure, that you at least reach to one. Because, more often than not, in a real life situation, a yes or no, a valid or invalid, an acceptance or denial, is more satisfying and worthy than a mere regret for not trying. At least it removes the thoughts from your mind, if you don’t try, and what might have happened if you did.

Again, one may argue, that it’s better if we take some good time to give a thought over the situation and then come to a decision. Well, if you think carefully, I never spoke against it. I am not against a thoughtful decision, how can I be. I spoke against the inability of making a decision. But, it does matter in most of the situations, ‘when’ you make up your mind. But, we may or may not realize, but we generally tend to mask our inability of decision, by the glittering carapace of a thoughtful mind.

Enough of what I had to say. Let’s get a bit practical now. I would hope, I am not trying to be pessimistic and my trying to be practical is not an excuse for the same. Something keeps striking me again and again, something I put in as:

“What if the best thing you ever thought of doing, may easily turn into the biggest blunder that you ever made, making you lose the most precious thing that you ever had, is it a risk worth taking?”

This question keeps hitting, hard, as hard it can ever do. Things are not as straight as we love to assume. Life is not always very simple. When it gets on you, it does that hard. At times, you get caught into situations, you never thought of being into. And you end up to a place where, there are two completely distinct ways. The first path, one you had always loved to be taking on, would either mean an attainment of everything you wanted or losing even the last penny that you had.

“What if everything you ever wanted, may cost everything you ever had?”

Well some questions, and the answers to them, mean to you more than any other damn thing you can think about. This is one of them. And the pursuit would continue, continue till the definition of time holds true for me, to get an answer, an answer that strikes my heart and soul. All I can pray is that it doesn’t get too late, before I ‘decide’!